Today is Papa's 12th

Today, August 14, 2011, marks the 12th death anniversary of my father..

Time flies fast.  But I still vividly remember that one fateful Saturday morning when my brother and I got a call that we needed to go home fast.

Since there was still no flights then from Cebu to Surigao, we proceeded to SuperCat Terminal and tried to book tickets for ourselves, but to no avail.  At that time, there was already a number of passengers who trooped to the pier.  They were on their way to Maasin... for a fiesta celebration.  And of course, they were in a festive mood while trying to outwit one another in securing those elusive gold tickets.  :(

I wanted to explain to the ticketing officer the urgency of our trip.  But then, a part of me was in denial that something bad was already happening at home.  In short, I closed my mouth, let the nature took its course, and let that chance fade..

Thereafter, my brother and I parted ways.  He went off somewhere while I went back to the boarding house... and waited...  Few minutes after, I got a dreaded call from him... that papa was gone...

I don't know how my landlady and my boardmate came to know about the bad news in just a few minutes.  I just heard them knocking at the door while calling my name.  I locked myself in, unmindful of them, cried endlessly.. and wished papa would see me for one last time... to say his last goodbye...

To this day, that memory still brings me to tears..  To this day, I still miss papa.. But then, I just console myself in knowing that someday, we will meet again...

Long Night Ahead...

According to my watch, it's 9:45PM as of the moment.  And here I am, still pounding on the keyboard of the office computer as if there is no tomorrow.  I'm not complaining, mind you.  It's just that... Well, just blame it to the caffeine in my coffee.  It still gets me going... for now though.

Now, I'm wondering... must it be that I'm having an overdose?  Oh, my...

Enough of the self-imposed break...  Back to work and to reality, guia!  The clock is ticking... :(

Why I Walked Away...

One article from the Philippine Daily Inquirer, entitled, "Why JLo walked away", dated today, August 5, 2011, caught my attention and pondered on JLo's words, quoted as follows:

"Sometimes we don't realize that we are compromising ourselves.  To understand that a person is not good for you, or that the person is not treating you in the right way, or that he is not doing the right thing for himself If I stay, then I am not doing the right thing for me.  I love myself enough to walk away from that now." (underscoring mine)

And I agree... :(

Office Suspended, Again!

Just this week, the government has declared suspension of office twice already.  And the first time, I was not able to go home as early as I could due to that coffee scandal (grrrr!).  This time, I won't be able to go home at all.. not until tomorrow.  Blame it to the same reason (and to P-Noy!). :(

My only consolation however is that we have just been provided with a hotel room accommodation for an overnight stay here.  Good thing, I brought with me my ipad.  Bad thing though, I didn't bring my charger.  Huhuhu.  Hope it can still last through the night. :(

Gotta go. I have to finish all these dirty paperworks as early as I can.  I'll be indulging to a bit taste of luxury later! :)

Thank you for the flowers...

You just can't imagine how much I appreciate you... your innate goodness... your thoughtfulness.. your sweetness... and more importantly, your being you...

It's more than just flowers... and you know what I mean...

I love you very much... I'll hold on to what we have promised to each other that there's no turning back... and it's gonna be us... just the two of us (no 3rd party please!)... till the end...

Even If...

I am posting an excerpt of this song today, July 1, 2011, which coincided with the occasion of the Feast of Sacred Heart of Jesus.

All those sleepless nights
All the tears I cried
All the pain I kept inside
I keep asking myself why
You had to say goodbye

Was it just a dream
When you said to me
That there is someone new in your life
You could have at least lied
The truth just killed me.

Even if you mean the whole damn world to me
I can forget you wait and see
I can be strong even without you

I can't waste my life forever hoping

You'll come back to me

Talk About Second Chances..

From the song:  Never Gonna Let You Go

I was as wrong as I could be
To let you get away from me
I'll regret that move
For as long as I'm living
But now that I've come to see the light
All I wanna do is make things right
So just say the word and tell me that I'm forgiven

You and me
We're gonna be better than we were before
I loved you then but now I intend
To open up and love you even more
This time you can be sure

I'm never gonna let you go
I'm gonna hold you in my arms forever
Gonna try and make up for the times
I hurt you so
Gonna hold your body close to mine
From this day on we're gonna be together
Oh, I swear this time
I'm never gonna let you go

Looking back now it seems so clear
I had it all when you were here
Oh, you gave it all and I took it for granted
But if there's some feeling left in you
Some flicker of love that still shines through
Let's talk it out
Let's talk about second chances

Wait and see
It's gonna be sweeter than it was before
I gave some then but now I intend
To dedicate myself to giving more
This time you can be sure

I'm never gonna let you go
I'm gonna hold you in my arms forever
Gonna try and make up for all the times
I hurt you so
Gonna hold your body close to mine
From this day on we're gonna be together
Oh, I swear this time
I'm never gonna let you go

Oh, so if you'll just say you want me too
I'm never gonna let you go
I'm gonna hold you in my arms forever
Gonna try and make up for all the times
I hurt you so
Gonna hold your body close to mine
From this day on we're gonna be together
Oh, I swear this time
I'm never gonna let you go

Never gonna let you go
Hold you in my arms forever
Gonna try and make up for all the times
I hurt you so
Hold your body close to mine
From this day on we're gonna be together
Oh, I swear this time
I'm never gonna let you go

Oh.. So if you'll just say..
You want me too..